5 Months...
I have been waiting you for 5 months
during this months
no matter how many hurt I got from you
Im still here
make my heart stronger n waiting for you
it doesn't matter we have broke up or what
Im still here thinking n making any things try to touched your heart
hoping one day you will turn back for me
wish that will could start again with no end
in every single days
you are in my dream
you are in my mind
you are in my life
going anywhere or anyplace
marking down all the best places I have go
cz I want to bring you along
record down all the sweetest thing I want to have with you
thinking what kind of surprise I wanna make for you on every festival or special days
tried to make everything become success
no matter how hard or impossibility
I will try all my way to make you become the most happiness girl in the world
with your smile
I dont care how many lies you have giving , cz I did act like nothing
I dont care how bad you have treating me, cz I did comforted n telling myself that you are just busy ,maybe?
I dont care how you have hurting me, cz I did smile when you finding me
when after every heart broken n crying
I stand up myself
refresh my mind n accept everything
love all your perfect n imperfection
telling myself that it was just a processing
when I knew you're coming back
I work so hard for saving money
put a lot of effort to making something for you
the intent is just wanna make you find back all the feeling from me
no matter how many friends have gave up on me
no matter how many friends have scolding me
No matter how they tried to stop me , finding any girls for me
disappointed on me
my only answer to giving them is
" Yes, Im stupid , but I love her as I really mean it."
Im smiling with tears
no one will know the feeling but I knew
cz Im the only one who loving
Im waiting
counting down the date when you are coming
5 months
finally we met
gave those present I have made for you
but I got nothing
no matter how tired I am
I think Im worth to spending my time my energy for you
waiting for few hours
you only came for the few minutes with once eyes glance
I knew all the truth
but I act like nothing
calm down myself n really be like nothing was happened
when you came over Im still light up my smile
tried to hug you again
Im holding your hands
"Dont like this , My customer here!"
I never tot that I will heard this words from you to me
throw away my hands with brutally eyes
my heart was dropping from the sky ,so high n so high.
my heart broken as dust
cried with no tear
screamed with no sounds
you forgot that Im human too
The most unacceptable thing is not heard you said you like "her"
The most painful thing is heard you said you like "HIM"
never regret to put 100% of love on you
but...
do you really ever know how my feeling when every time I got the hurt from you...
how strong I need to stand up myself again n again
you wont know cz you never love me as I love you
you will never ever know how much I did really love you
cz you never try to understand me or know me more
why am I seems like begging you back all the time
but not you?
why am I so cherish about everything
but not you?
why was you delete me n block me all the time
but not me?
why should I be so suffer in love
but not you?
why should I be the one who missing you so much
but not you?
why should I be the one who always waiting
but not you?
why should I be the one who keep repeat about the memories
but no you?
why should I be the one who showing all the heart
but not you!?
my dear love
I love you ,I really really really love you
not only saying cz I did showing my action to you
but my dear love...
my heart is totally too painful on this time...
could you loving me back on this time?
Im deeply in fell n I need your hands to pull me up now
