Curious

seem when you throw my hands away

I have trying to forget the painful you gave me until now

still being suffer

I still remember your expression

all your action

all your cruel

on ME

I cant forget

hard to forget

because you're the one who I most believe in

the most I love the most I trust 

that's why I get hurt again n again

but Im still there n never go far away

everynight

before I sleep

when I am alone

when I am tired

thinking how we have fun together

thinking back all our sweet

Im smiling until I fall asleep every day n night

no matter how we being strange now

Im still smiling really smiling from heart

because I am still love , fully love 

yes , I love you

but the truth is

the one who I love is "you" not you

the one who I met from the first time

the one who want to have forever

but now "you" were gone

gone...gone...gone...

I am strong

I am strong to telling people that I have open my mind

I have see through 

I am happy

but how they know the truth is

when Im alone

all I am thinking about is you...

I am writing our story with tear running out...

I am hugging the bear which I bought for you every night...

when I am in the darkness all I want is you...

how they know? how they know my feeling...they wont...you wont...

I dont understand n I dont know why 

why you can cherish what other people is giving you

but you wont cherish about mine?

I wonder why

why I do I did all the things with full of heart n love

but you never feel surprise ?

but you know how to say thanks to another person who you just meet

you said that you dont need a perfect relationship

you only need who will never give up on you

you said you never met

 BUT

I wonder who I am?

I am the one who standing in front of you

the one who you always hurting on cheating on but still THERE

you never look on me

you NEVER

you just pity on me

you just play on me

you just fool on me

...

again again n again

the first time... I stay

the second... I stay

the third time...I stay

the fourth... how do know I will always behind you? 

I am human too...

I got heart...

I god blood...

I got feeling I know whats pain too

...

I am working so hard now

being busy every day until I have no energy

because I dont want to have time to feel the pain you gave me again

but it doesn't work

cz I am still missing you

:'(