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Remember last time we quarrel for almost 2weeks

we never contact each other

but one day

I saw your line statue mention that you're sick

Im sick at that time too

after saw your statue

I dont know why

I felt like wanna find you

no matter how I angry or hate about you on that time

I just felt like I wanna take care of you

I had been irresolute about wanna send a msg or not for one hour before I slept

but in the end I sent it

that night I slep at 1am

I woke up at 4

I think it was because I was too care about will I get your reply or not

Im afraid of hurt

 

But that time

I woke up n I saw you read the msg with no reply

Im so sad n just tried to sleep back

my mind was thinking that :

"ohhh... is ok , fine,I wont find you again!!!"

after two hours

you reply me

Im so happy n my smile start light up

you said you got something wanna show me

then you sent those picture for me

which is all about us

Im shock

fucking shock

shock until my body really shaking

It was too surprise that I cant accept it suddenly

yes cz I never think that you will still saving those picture

I tot that you have delete it all

 but you didnt 

you screen shoot the msg which I had sent to you that night

you upload it

you mention you're so glad to know that actually Im still care about you

else n else... but the last words you said that " you remember the best 'FRIEND" you had was me"

Im happpy to see that statue but Im more curious about what did you mean in "best FRIEND"

so... Im your friend?

or?

ok... nvm I found the other way to understand you

maybe you just dont want to let your customer or friend ask you more about?

or any problem?

yaa.. I think like that 

tried to find every way to understand you with no misunderstanding 

I hope what Im thinking n doing is right

almost few weeks now

we stay good

yaa good ? maybe

something like few days reply me one time?

you said you're "busy"

n what I saw is you're busy in drink drank drunk ?

ok maybe you are really busy n have no time to reply me

but I saw you still have time to change your profile picture ,reply your friends,upload statue, upload photo...n you have no time to reply me

they say: A person , who really love you or care about you , no matter how busy they are , they will still arrange the time for you , if you are really important to them"

then I suddenly ask my self

" so ... Im not important to her? she is not loving me? she is not care about me? cz Im not important to her? or the way she love a person is treat her like that?"

ask myself dont think too much again

cz it just will make my heart broken again

maybe you are really busy

I should understand you

finally you reply me today

told me that you are coming back in this week

so fast so happy cz we will meet again

I have been waiting you for almost 5 months

finally we are getting meet

 

Im asking is there anyway that you can help me get in to the club to find you

you said Can

Im asking again are you sure I can get in?

and you reply me like " Can , Can ,Can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dont ask too much"

hmmm.... I want to say that I only do what the thing is really confirm or 100% sure

Im just asking for sure

cz Im under 18 

The club law in Sg is different in Malaysia

there are more stern 

more seriously than malaysia

if I cant get in 

how?

is that mean that I need stand in front the door ? or just return back to Malaysia?

cz I cant get in to find you while your working

 

Im just asking for SURE...

I dont want to have any problem happen if I really go find you one day

why you just make me feel that Im annoying to asking you about something

haizzz... am I wrong in asking ?

those words suddenly make me feel sad

 or if you are busy on that time while you are replying me?

tell me , I can understand but dont reply like that 

it will make me think much

 

 however 

Im still glad that we are getting closer to each other

better than before

I hope that you can really cherish me more in this time

I hope that you could really know how much of love I have putting on you

I hope that you could understand me n be patience on me more

I hope that we could stay longer n good

n I hope that you could really love me n no others as the same how I love you

 

Im waiting for you my girl

I really miss you 

good night

:)