Actually

Yesterday I got your news that you're going back to sg

yaa..actually I knew already

but you seem like not willing

I can feel it, but I no dare to think about "why"

you said you still miss JB...

Im telling myself at that moment that :

" YES, she miss JB , but NOT YOU. You better dont think too much buddy"

(laughing with heartpain again)

I wish that you could come back to here

I swear that I will bring you around and make you feel happy with me again

but I didnt give any action

because I do not know what you are thinking now...

after that I know form you that you will be working at SG for half year

Im happy with sad and worry

I dont know why?

happy maybe because you are near from me again

sad because I dont know will you want to meet me again?

worry because Im about mum will argue with you

:(

I love you , I love your family too

I know you promised your mum before that you will go back study

and I know mum was worry about this for long time

she put a lot of effort on it

I can felt it when last time I text with her

buying a house for mum

is a very sweet thing and love action

but I just scare mum will misunderstand you and tot you just find a reason that dont want go back study

I dont want you argue with mum 

I dont want mum will feel disappoint

maybe I think too much but it just should be care about it

you need to think carefully before you do

but on the another way

I will always support you too

because I know everyone do anything must have their own reason

I never against

just give an advise

hope you dont mind...

remember we used to be discussing everthing before we sleep but now...