Not a perfect Birthday

almost 19days we never talk

alomost 3days we never contact

I tot my Bd will different in this year

but Im wrong

4years already... Im still alone

letting you go...

it doesn't mean that I dont love you...

it doesn't mean that I give up on you...

never

Just because I love you, I do not want to force you

Just because I love you if you're happy with her more than me, I should let you go

My heart was not willing to do this

My heart was break

but I know the truth is... if you really love a person,if you really want her to be happiness...

if she really feel that her ex can give her all of this ... why dont you just let her go and wishing her?

"a true love ...it doesn't mean that she must be with you.."

I love you... I just want you to be happy , to be happiness...

if you really found this feeling with her...there you go...

I wont stop you... I wont force you...

if you are happiness....then enough

remember i told you before? you smile I smile 

even this decide was hurt... but im still willing to do it for you... just because I love you

except your father and mother... I swear ... I love you more than others

even I let you go for her but I never give up on you

Im still waiting ...Im still fighting...

one year? two years or three years?

no matter how long times it will take... remember Im always be here for you...

when you feel tired... when you feel hopeless...when you feel alone ... when you enough for play...

remember to turn back... Im standing on your back with smile and hug

I told you...  even you cant live the happiness with me now.. I will let you know in future

even Im still young I cant give you anything you want...I will fight a future which able to be with you 

I will waiting for you .... waiting until a day you will know my heart...

until a day you will come back for me...

until a day I could hold you hands and hug you tight again...

remember we deal before ? you said you like Italian food

I said "ok!Our honeymoon will be at Italian!"

I never forget what I had promise you...

even your heart is not with me now... what I had promised to you is still processing ...

I will prove you...I will hold your hand again in the future

Im not your good lover

I easy to be jealous

I easy to get mad

I want you to accompany me always

I like to talk with you for long time on phone

I like to see you by facetime

I always waiting for you at night 

I always annoying you

I always ask you to take care yourself

I always be so worries on you

I always be so care about you

I always get drunk when Im not happy
I always be too missing you

I always be too focus on you

I always cry for you

I always thinking back all of the happiness with you

I always want to be your perfect boyfriend but I never know what you actually want?and I have no chance to ask now

I always force you to take photo for me,sing for me,talk with me

Im sorry...Im not good enough...

I had changing so much for you but it seem like still not enough

I had trying so hard to understand you and know about you more but it seem like still not enough

everything was gone now and I cant do anything for you now...

I havent know your all ... I havent make you be the most happiness girl in the world... I havent be the good lover...but everything was gone now...

your heart was without me now...

Im sorry...I havent be the one who you want...

Im sorry... I havent be the one who you need...

Im sorry ... Im still learning to know about you and love you ...

1 hour more my birthday was coming...

I miss you my love... I really miss you... 

how nice if you are with me now?

I have no dare to imagine about that again

early to say happy birthday to myself

:')